It’s funny how life surprises you at times, it also doesn’t escape me how perspective really does change how good or bad you see things.
I went away for a few days this week, the first time in over 4 years I think. The first time in 4 years that I #1 found something worth while going away for, and #2 found it safe enough to do so.
With the boys dealing with the things that have come up and with me having to really be the “Master of my sea” … *wink* going away has been out of the question. Although both boys have different issues the one constant that keeps them grounded is me. No two ways about it, when things are stressful I need to be here and at the ready …. again, the Master of my sea! If I’m not at the helm at home the ship might sink …. not because I don’t think that someone else can handle it but because THEY don’t.
Being in charge 24/7/365 and having not one but two people depend on you for their mental health is taxing on the best of days. Four years in and well ….. you start to wonder if it’s ever going to be safe for you to leave!
I had been hoping …. planning a get away in the spring. That didn’t happen, or at least has not yet happened. That is still too many days away to be comfortable. BUT we did just manage an over night trip! *grin*
It wasn’t just a trip, it was a trip to watch Imagine Dragons!!! LoL In case you haven’t been around long, I happen to really love music and I happen to REALLY LOVE Imagine Dragons!
So of course I wore my imaginary dragon to watch them:
I have a thing for T-shirts too FYI! *wink*
I could focus on the fact that it has been so long OR I could focus on the fact that it has just happened! And happened well, everything went according to plan. No child felt overwhelmed or anxious and no one had issues to make up for or deal with when we got back!
Me on the other hand … well that’s a different story. I had a bit of a mental over load to deal with BUT again, it boils down to your perspective.
I felt comfortable enough to actually be able to let myself decompress …. no matter how messy …. or uncomfortable. I just did. And believe me there was a lot of pent-up energy that needed out, still is really but at least the pressure valve has been opened.
So back to how this all ties together, when we got to the concert and found our seats it became quickly apparent that we were effectively sitting in the first seats of a wind tunnel! On a chilly day with the wind blowing off the lake! Good thing we packed some sweaters!!
At first it seemed that these seats were not at all going to be very good and my one outing might just be cursed beyond repair! But I kept on! I was going to find a way to enjoy this once in a lifetime opportunity whether or not I liked it, darn it!! LoL
Well, not long after that someone much too much taller than me decided to change seats with his kid and sit right in front of me. Oh awesome!
Once the concert started EVERYONE decided they needed to stand that was in front of me, again awesome! Right?? I’m 5 foot nothin’ and that includes the shoes! 😛
Well, I could have been down but I decided why not go for the gusto?? I tried standing out further in the isle cuz no one was stopping me. It seems the security guard took pity because he didn’t say a word, just watched and let me stand there, dance there, and sing, of course!! LoL
Some time into the concert he ushered me back to my seat. I thought, oh okay, I’ve gotten away with it long enough …. but I was oh so wrong!
As I turned to go back to my seat and then faced back around I came face to face with Daniel Reynolds! LOL OMG!!!! I think my brain misfired there a time or too!!! I just couldn’t compute what just happened.
Fortunately I caught up well enough by the time he was on his way back to the stage and I got a big old High Five from the leader of one of my favourite bands! Apparently he likes to run through the crowd singing when he can, go figure! I guess the seats weren’t all that bad after all!
Lots more singing and lots more dancing and lots more standing later and then the band was once more on the move!
Guess who got a high 5 from the entire band??? *giggle* Yeah, I did, I was pretty excited I can tell you!
I swear the guy is a jack rabbit! He jumps and runs and dances for 2 hours straight! The concert is high energy and they sound just like they sound … no crap, no B/s just real music and talent!
There is no way to even begin to tell you the energy in which they play. It really is worth every penny and every effort, and I have been told many times, I am not easily impressed!
I don’t know if I’ll ever get a chance to see them again, I hope I do. The thing that I most remember from this trip away however …. the boys were good, the animals were good and all my plants survived!
I choose to enjoy the good bits as they came and not dwell on the parts that may or may not be a problem. It all worked out in the end and I even got to release some much-needed stress energy.
Where does that take me next? Don’t know … but if I get to high 5 another band that speaks to me, well than, I think over all, Live Is Good! *wink*
Happy Father’s Days All!