I've been hoping for some fun in life recently, some fun that keeps being just beyond my grasp. Just when I think things will settle and cards will be played and I will finally get to just be 'free' ....... it seems to come and go before my eyes. The hours and days slide by … Continue reading Entirely Too serious
The weather has been a real pain lately, with ups and downs in heat, humidity, cold and fog. My body and brain have followed suit! I have tried every trick i know, getting rest, using relaxation methods to ensure better sleep. Trying not to over do it with physical work and continuing with workouts and … Continue reading Fibro & CTD = TIRED!!!
Sometimes all you can do is shake your head. My brother has been basically stalked by this woman for a few weeks. She saw him at the grocery store and decided she wanted him i guess ... anyhow. Eventually and after a few weeks she basically shows up at his house. Pretty much uninvited. Being … Continue reading Am I that ‘old’??? Or are people losing all sense ….
I haven't written here in a while and i think it's because i'm just actively avoiding the whole thing in my mind. I don't want to put energy into writing it down because i just don't think i have any 'extra' energy left for this right now. I've been back to work since the beginning … Continue reading Avoiding
Ever feel like you are talking to the wall? I have said essentially the same thing over and over since June about trying to get my oldest the courses and help he needs to get his high school credits. I have been sent and driven all over hell's half-acre to try to talk to and … Continue reading Am I really *that* confusing???
I deal in logic and facts When dealing with a world that works off emotions I often find myself at a loss Emotions don't often make sense, they just are When emotions ran my thoughts I used many self-destructive ways to cope Intellectually dealing with things as they come up allows me to be rid … Continue reading Lost in translation
I've been waiting on a call or email from the school since this time last week. So far, nothing. I have to get my oldest set up for school and I can't do it alone. His previous emotional trauma has made it so he has no interest in an 'in class' approach to school right … Continue reading And so it begins ….
When I was younger I wanted to 'write'. Poems and lyrics mostly, stories just seemed too long and I have always had a way of saying things quickly and to the point. Made writing 27 chapters a bit difficult! *chuckle* I don't think anyone ever really cared for anything I wrote, I certainly didn't get … Continue reading Write what you know.
I just read a post from a fellow blogger about triggers. I understand what happens quite well, I lived with them for years. I had a tiny bit of a reminder yesterday but I'm glad to say I quickly side-stepped it and moved on, mostly. Obviously I still remember but it's not something I'm dwelling … Continue reading At the oddest moments
This month has been a 'tough' one for many reasons. The boys both doing online summer school and neither of them really wanting or trying. That leaves a lot of 'heavy lifting' in the motivation department for mom. Me not working, which you would think was a great thing, but I haven't been able to … Continue reading Always on my mind ….