I've been hoping for some fun in life recently, some fun that keeps being just beyond my grasp. Just when I think things will settle and cards will be played and I will finally get to just be 'free' ....... it seems to come and go before my eyes. The hours and days slide by … Continue reading Entirely Too serious
Ever feel like you are talking to the wall? I have said essentially the same thing over and over since June about trying to get my oldest the courses and help he needs to get his high school credits. I have been sent and driven all over hell's half-acre to try to talk to and … Continue reading Am I really *that* confusing???
I deal in logic and facts When dealing with a world that works off emotions I often find myself at a loss Emotions don't often make sense, they just are When emotions ran my thoughts I used many self-destructive ways to cope Intellectually dealing with things as they come up allows me to be rid … Continue reading Lost in translation
I've been waiting on a call or email from the school since this time last week. So far, nothing. I have to get my oldest set up for school and I can't do it alone. His previous emotional trauma has made it so he has no interest in an 'in class' approach to school right … Continue reading And so it begins ….
I just read a post from a fellow blogger about triggers. I understand what happens quite well, I lived with them for years. I had a tiny bit of a reminder yesterday but I'm glad to say I quickly side-stepped it and moved on, mostly. Obviously I still remember but it's not something I'm dwelling … Continue reading At the oddest moments
This month has been a 'tough' one for many reasons. The boys both doing online summer school and neither of them really wanting or trying. That leaves a lot of 'heavy lifting' in the motivation department for mom. Me not working, which you would think was a great thing, but I haven't been able to … Continue reading Always on my mind ….
Boy, yesterday hit me like a ton of bricks, or car, maybe a car ... yeah, that's a better choice.. I felt like I had been run over, honestly! Every single inch hurt. The Bear was trying to play around and be cheeky and just his touching my knee hurt like the dickens! (I have … Continue reading A lot better today! 😀
I love my children, I don't regret having them and I don't blame them for anything. We have had plenty of hard times but plenty of good ones too. Don't misunderstand what I'm trying to say here. Everywhere I read about moms excited and fulfilled by having children and raising them and being moms. The … Continue reading Truths no one wants to hear.
So many things with the oldest I never know just how to put it down 'on paper' and have it come out right. The nuances are so many that it really is hard to say it in just one post! He's still dragging his feet with school. Part of that is he's lazy, I know … Continue reading The double edged sword
This wasn't what I was going to ramble about this morning, but it came to mind so here we go! *wink* About a year ago now we were running around trying to do all sorts of things to pretty and prepare the yard for a huge party! If you've been here a while you might … Continue reading Funny how life comes around.